“Why?” he speaks casually, as if he didn’t just flip my world upside down. He once again took my choice and learnt things he has no business learning.Ĭonsidering how observant he is, I figured he knew a few things about me, but never in my wildest dreams would I have thought he delved too deep. As if someone dipped their fingers inside me and wrenched out a part of me I’ve always kept under lock and key. It’s like I’ve listened to a distorted retelling of my life. “Shut up!” My voice shakes, then breaks, coming out as haunted as I feel. You’re also self-conscious about listening to rock music, and you do it in secret because you’re worried that if Cynthia or anyone finds out you do listen to it, they’ll think you don’t deserve to play the piano. You don’t allow anyone to see your makeup-free face, because you’re self-conscious about the freckles on your nose. You let guys get close, but never close enough to see who you are, what you are. But you can’t tell them to spend time with you, because that will make you seem weak, and you loathe that more than losing all your friends who actually matter. You’re jealous not only that she took Kim, but also that Ronan and Xander are gravitating towards her and leaving your snobbishness behind. Truth is, you’re jealous of Elsa and it’s not because of Aiden. "You keep Summer and Veronica as friends, because they’re disposable and so you won’t feel the pain you still do whenever you look in Kimberly’s direction and realise she also left you behind and chose Elsa over you.
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